Hi everyone,
Hi everyone,
I feel so foolish posting on here when I know there are people in much much worse situations. I have been racking my brain for eight days- since my derm first told me that my mole has all four characteristic of suspicion and needs to come off "as soon as possible". Tomorrow is the day I've been waiting for- to get this scary thing taken off. Today the office called to move the appointment- I was afraid to next week- but instead they wanted to move it up an hour. My mom asked me to find out when I could have the results,so I asked while I was on the phone with them. I figured I would have to wait until maybe next tues or wed- possibly a week tops.
Much to my surprise, they said usually about two weeks, maybe one if I'm lucky. I have never needed valium or xanax so much as the past eight days, but of course I don't have any. I've just been trying to get through until tomorrow, but now it feels like I'm just barely getting into finding out anything.
I know it's dramatic, and I know I'm so lucky compared to people who have already gotten terrible news, but I'm so very terrified. I can't stop crying, can't eat, sleep, or focus on school. I don't want to be negative, but it's where my mind keeps ending up.
Is this normal for biopsies to take two weeks?
It feels like I'm a step behind if there is anything wrong. It takes time to get an appointment if there is something else wrong, and it takes two weeks just to find out if you need that next appointment.
On another note, I haven't told anyone except for my husband and my mother (who then told my dad and my sister). No one else knows what's going on. My husband has left almost every night after work to go hunting, while my mother has uncharacteristicaly scarcely called me this week. This has been the scariest, loneliest, and longest eight days of my life and I'm not sure how or when this journey will end. I feel so pathetic for not being more positive and so utterly alone.
One last question: Does anyone know of any doctors in the oklahoma city area or even in Oklahoma that can "fast track" these kinds of things?
I'm so sorry for the rant and keep everyone in my thoughts and prayers.
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