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- September 10, 2018 at 1:23 am
I am in a very similar boat.
I too tanned indoors when Inwas younger and wish I could go back and change my stupid 22 year old decisions… although I did not know about melanoma and tanning beds at that point.
I had a mild atypical mole completely removed 7 years ago and all was OK. Until 6 months I had what looked like a mosquito bite biopsed (Dr said was doing biopsy to calm me) because it was nothing.. turned out moderate to severe. The day I had the excision I had her do a check and biopse 2 more that turned out mil and mild-moderate.
They moderate-severe has really hit me hard. I’m 35 with two small kids and feel melanoma is coming to haunt me because of my indoor tanning days. I have cried for days nonstop and now can’t stop obsessing about moles. I even decided not to have the third baby I wanted so badly just in case this moderate-severe could have been an early melanoma.
My husband has also had 1 mild and 1 mild-moderate removed but he has over 100 moles all look weird to the untrained eye… he never tanned in or out… so I think you might be in the same category as him having so many moles… me in the other hand I have like max 30 moles in my body and 70% of them look like freckles so this whole atypica situation is my fault 100%.
I am trying to stay proactive and see a derm every 3 months for now… will change to 6 when given OK. And also Like you changed to another derm since the first one didn’t use Now I visit a melanoma specialist (not oncologist) so I can be more at ease that I’d indeed I get melanoma I have a better chance of finding it early.
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- September 9, 2018 at 11:14 pm
AN8 your words mean so much! Yes this definitely has taken a huge toll on me…. physically and emotionally! It’s as if I feel this monster is coming and my severe mole was just a warning. Sometimes I look at kids and just cry. Plus so hard to keep up with their activities in the sun … Soccer etc… wanting to go to the pool… I feel like this is changing and affecting my life and every decision I make.
But… that said working on staying present and every time I feel as though having a severely atypical mole at 35 (I have like 25 moles max in my body-so 9 don’t have dysplastic syndrome) is basically melanoma (most pive read online is as close to melanoma as you can get) I say I am here today!
Thank you you and my prayers are with you too!