Thank you, Marcy. I think what I struggle with most is trying to get to a point where I don't feel like I need to freak out and go see the derm for "everything" and go when I "really know" something is up, if that makes sense? I would absolutely kick myself if I ever second guessed myself over something and not gone in and then turn out that it was bad and should have gone in sooner. Right now when I go and see him for my yearly checks, afterwards I leave feeling great/very positive and then like a week later I'll notice a mole and think to myself, "oh, maybe i really should have asked him about that one again" or "that one might look darker/look like it has changed since I last looked, but I'm not totally sure and I was just there and don't wanna look "stupid" going back in when I was just there" and things like that, *sigh*…sometimes I just can't turn this brain of mine off!!
He has obviously informed me of what kinds of changes and things I need to watch out for, but at the same time he said since I'm only 30 there is a good chance that I will get new moles until I'm 35-40 years old and it doesn't necessarily mean that they are bad, and that sometimes moles will get darker but not necessarily in a bad way. Also, I've read stories about what people's melanomas looked like when they found it and sometimes the description sounds a lot like moles I have on me now (nothing crazy looking, more like people like you who have a tiny spot that may be kind of dark – unless yours was dark like the color black dark, mine aren't like that and the ones that are slightly darker than my others are my atypical ones so far…). If melanoma weren't such a tricky little beast! I do appreciate your helpful words though, so thank you again 🙂
